Time flies. Every time a read an old note or entry, I am always surprised that it was 1-2 or 3 months ago. Wow. And then I figure out all the things I could have done in that period, but didn’t. And then decide that I will start today. Why today, Now!
And then I go to sleep.
I have tried analyzing why I do it. Why I procrastinate so much.
To be honest, I have never been a hard working lad. Never had to work much for anything in my life, and perhaps that is what scares me. It is still an unknown territory for me.
I have friends who tell me that they can study stretch for hours at a time, because they have the experience from when they did it for their qualifying exams. I have had the opportunity to hang out with many dedicated and hard working students when I was in college and their work ethic always surprised me.
I, personally, have never worked that way. Have never studied that way.
For me, everything has to be perfect, for me to start something. The environment, the plan, how I will go about it etc.
But lately I have realized that whatever little I have learned, or skills I have acquired over the years, have been when I started something with no plan at all, no intention of sticking to it for long, and slowly with the time flying, my level kept on improving, and there I was better than everyone else at it. That I understand now is the secret to learning anything new. Just start, keep at it, take as many breaks as you want, but keep at it, come back to it always and next thing you know, you are good at it.
To be continued…